In My Case

For me there are two types of writing: the literature writing and the simple essay writing. The easy writing is a job that can be done at any time with no inspiration, as a line of facts grabbed together by words. But in the case of literature writing, there are a lot of complications.

I am not a child that is unknown to words. In my case, most of the walls in my house are filled with books and all the members of my family are known for knowing a lot. Also literature and art, hasn’t been an unknown filed in my house and education. Every vacation we learn about the customs, art, and literature from the place, and since our last summers have been around Greece, Italy, England, Spain and France, our time was filled with information rather than shopping.
However, I am intimidated by literature, and this ends up being my struggle for writing.
Unlike my family, grabbing a book wasn’t my idea of fun. However, I have been influenced my customs, and slowly introduced literature in my life. When it comes to reading, it is amazing when I understand otherwise; I hate it, but that doesn’t tend to happen. I love the way authors are able to not only gather those ideas, but also write them in a “Page is it flat and undensified” (The Sentence is a Lonely Place” Gary Lutz). However, I must admit that this amazement has grown into a huge intimidation.

When you are forced or expected to write something good of your own, I get stuck. I haven’t bee able to write with a constant style, making my writing inconsistent. Also, there are a lot of thoughts in my head that contradict and connect in a way that is very hard to explain. Therefore, I end up having the “temptation for the writer to get out of one sentence as soon as possible” (Lutz) and rushing through thoughts. This is what has made my writing a very lonely place.

However, once in my life I was really inspired. This Wednesday night I was so tired, that I can’t even remember writing what I wrote. I believe the Sara that is not scared of writing, wrote that night, but I have certainly haven’t had the chance to take her out again.

I don’t know what is wrong with me, and I really don’t want to talk about it. I just hope to find my own style and get things straight. But most of all, I want that excellent writer to come back.